absolute optimism vs absolute depression
i noe i noe.. i said hiatus.. but err.. i jus hadta write. hmm.. yest was a good dae. esp training?.. hahas.. jo tried to get me an opp.. but i cldn't. yikes. then aft tt. the pen incident.. char nearly burst out laughing. hahas.. thnx gal.. for not actually bursting out.. tho im sure i cld hear u on the verge of it. hah hmm.. and got sme BAD news. im going to b in btwn 2 NTU shooters for the competition. cos we dont get to choose our own lanes. haiz.. good news.. itz a whole dae affair.. and pistol and rifle on the same dae. and reserves will hafta b there too. :).. but a whole dae event.. good grief.. starting frm 7.30am inthe morning. and itz at YISHUN safra. yipes. dont even noe how ta get there. aniwae yeah.. tt was yest.
todae.. hmm.. i was surprised this morning by a msg frm mark sayin tt he hoped i'd haf a good dae. and that realli made my dae. and i told myself ok.. going to make special effort to haf a good dae. :) and so i did.
thursdays are long and dreary. and itz onli until 4pm u noe.. im seriously stumped as to how we managed to survive 5.10 days last year. good grief. hmm.. the leslie lung talk. 'understanding sexuality' ok.. i err.. realli dont noe wad to sae lah huh. beyond words. and funnil enough.. cld hear everybody mumbling 'sji' when he was abt to reveal to us which sch he came from. and he realli was. when he said... smewhere near here.. like e the whole audi burst out laughing lah. rofl
haha kit came to sch aft tt.. like 8-9smth.. and u shld see the mcs he gets lah damn friggin farnie. pardon moi whos never had to go and get [/ pay for] an mc b4. hmm.. i slept during lit lect.. and i did the default.. pretend to b copying smth.. as in eyes closed and me practically aslp.. but fingers jus scribbling anyhow.. to make it look like im copying lect notes. sarah was entertained. 1.5hrs of gp was erm ok lah. teamwork w brandon and soph is quite alright. :) lol hmm.. i didn't slp during econs. haha.. i listened and copied notes k.
pe was wonderful. played netball w t9. thot we were gonna die lah. i mean.. hello.. t9.. means ranjan.. selina and jasmin and wing.. netball and basketball or smth... whoa.. scary lah. and i was super scared tt smeone in my class wld offend smeone there and make enemies of our classes.. cos then i'd b caught in the middle. phew luckily tt didn't happ. hmm.. sean didn't haf tt many 'violations' surprisingly.. ben was worse. haha aniwae.. twas fun. not enough playing time man. hope we get to play again next time. netball's kinda fun. ;0) then went for hist extra lesson. aft which, i waited at the bus stop a damn long time for 156 lah.. tze wei was also on the bus and we had a nice chat.:0)
im moving downstairs to mak-ko's room to study agian.. like i did b4 the promos. hopin it will help.. smehow. i jus keep falling aslp upstairs.. no matter wad i do. and i feel so utterly unprepared. yikes. serious stuff.
yes and the main reason why i felt a compulsion to write.. is to pen down the theory i formulated while in the bath todae. i'll call it
cher's theory of absolute optimism
this, i haf identified as my main flaw.. and the main cause of me getting depressed most of the time.
so aniwae yes, this is how the theory goes.. anything and everything will go as best as it possibly can. [aka anything you'd like to happen cld and prolly will happen] and if it doesn't, make excuses for it. unlike murphy's law.. his one can't work as a self-fulfilling prophecy.. it doens't haf that benefit. *[murphy's law states that everything tt cld happen in the worst imaginable way, probably will]
and in the event that by the end of the dae.. nth remotely to wad u had hoped for.. happed.. u realise the optimism was unfounded.. and get utterly and absolutely depressed. n that my friends, is the bloody oscillation. the creme de la creme of all evil.
moral of the story.. u shldn't/can't/ [and as i hafta tell myself constantly..] WILL NOT.. try to alwaez expect the best of things. you will not go arnd expecting the worst either.. but keep that at the back of ur mind, jus in case. it'll help to make any other situation better. expectations.. [aka over-enthu hopefulness] can ruin you. trust me.. haha. jus take wad comes. as it comes.
with this.. i've got to go.. cos there's plenty to study. ciao.
GD LUCK FOR COMMON TESTS EVERYBODY!!
temporary hiatus, now official. tho i dont noe.. i may feel the need to write short entries frm time to time. :) adios amigo. and as hiresh wld sae.. 'adios amiga' for the gals.. LOL. ;0p
todae.. hmm.. i was surprised this morning by a msg frm mark sayin tt he hoped i'd haf a good dae. and that realli made my dae. and i told myself ok.. going to make special effort to haf a good dae. :) and so i did.
thursdays are long and dreary. and itz onli until 4pm u noe.. im seriously stumped as to how we managed to survive 5.10 days last year. good grief. hmm.. the leslie lung talk. 'understanding sexuality' ok.. i err.. realli dont noe wad to sae lah huh. beyond words. and funnil enough.. cld hear everybody mumbling 'sji' when he was abt to reveal to us which sch he came from. and he realli was. when he said... smewhere near here.. like e the whole audi burst out laughing lah. rofl
haha kit came to sch aft tt.. like 8-9smth.. and u shld see the mcs he gets lah damn friggin farnie. pardon moi whos never had to go and get [/ pay for] an mc b4. hmm.. i slept during lit lect.. and i did the default.. pretend to b copying smth.. as in eyes closed and me practically aslp.. but fingers jus scribbling anyhow.. to make it look like im copying lect notes. sarah was entertained. 1.5hrs of gp was erm ok lah. teamwork w brandon and soph is quite alright. :) lol hmm.. i didn't slp during econs. haha.. i listened and copied notes k.
pe was wonderful. played netball w t9. thot we were gonna die lah. i mean.. hello.. t9.. means ranjan.. selina and jasmin and wing.. netball and basketball or smth... whoa.. scary lah. and i was super scared tt smeone in my class wld offend smeone there and make enemies of our classes.. cos then i'd b caught in the middle. phew luckily tt didn't happ. hmm.. sean didn't haf tt many 'violations' surprisingly.. ben was worse. haha aniwae.. twas fun. not enough playing time man. hope we get to play again next time. netball's kinda fun. ;0) then went for hist extra lesson. aft which, i waited at the bus stop a damn long time for 156 lah.. tze wei was also on the bus and we had a nice chat.:0)
im moving downstairs to mak-ko's room to study agian.. like i did b4 the promos. hopin it will help.. smehow. i jus keep falling aslp upstairs.. no matter wad i do. and i feel so utterly unprepared. yikes. serious stuff.
yes and the main reason why i felt a compulsion to write.. is to pen down the theory i formulated while in the bath todae. i'll call it
cher's theory of absolute optimism
this, i haf identified as my main flaw.. and the main cause of me getting depressed most of the time.
so aniwae yes, this is how the theory goes.. anything and everything will go as best as it possibly can. [aka anything you'd like to happen cld and prolly will happen] and if it doesn't, make excuses for it. unlike murphy's law.. his one can't work as a self-fulfilling prophecy.. it doens't haf that benefit. *[murphy's law states that everything tt cld happen in the worst imaginable way, probably will]
and in the event that by the end of the dae.. nth remotely to wad u had hoped for.. happed.. u realise the optimism was unfounded.. and get utterly and absolutely depressed. n that my friends, is the bloody oscillation. the creme de la creme of all evil.
moral of the story.. u shldn't/can't/ [and as i hafta tell myself constantly..] WILL NOT.. try to alwaez expect the best of things. you will not go arnd expecting the worst either.. but keep that at the back of ur mind, jus in case. it'll help to make any other situation better. expectations.. [aka over-enthu hopefulness] can ruin you. trust me.. haha. jus take wad comes. as it comes.
with this.. i've got to go.. cos there's plenty to study. ciao.
GD LUCK FOR COMMON TESTS EVERYBODY!!
temporary hiatus, now official. tho i dont noe.. i may feel the need to write short entries frm time to time. :) adios amigo. and as hiresh wld sae.. 'adios amiga' for the gals.. LOL. ;0p
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