nowhere near

nowhere near you, for one. [not that it'd make a difference, i guess]
nowhere near ready for the NTU shoot. [not getting better fast enuf, n can't rush it]
nowhere near ready for CTs. [too much to do, too little time]

but life doesn't wait for u to be ready, now does it?..

and i've realised that sme things.. tho u try to put behind you.. will still come back to you in lapses and u realli can't help it. in little things.. tt u wldn't haf thot u'd rmbr, but of course, u do. suffice to sae.. it stings a lil.. but oh wells.. tt's life i guess. and in a wae.. i guess wad the brother [when i was at holy hour of vocations on fridae] said, cmes to mind. smth to the effect that god puts you thru all the expereiences for a reason. and i guess i've alwaez known and trusted that god wldn't put me thru smth he noes he and i wldn't b able to do together.

ALIVE exhibition.. well.. my absolute pride and joy is the intro board. :0) love it. shall try and get a picture of it and put it up here. dame came over for awhile to study [rather than go all the wae home aft little rock] and then we went to prepare for the exhibition. hmm.. all good lah. we were a little rushed and a little stressed.. but all in all.. i think we did good. no, we did great. hmm.. onli i was quite pissed that we weren't realli given a proper exhibition venue. stupid corner near the carpark.. virtually out of sight unless u were specifically looking for us [and looked hard]. sighs.. wad to do lah.. you work as best u can w wad u get i guess. and they DIDN'T read out the announcement aft 6pm mass yest. haix. wasted. at which pt... i jus.. oh well.. i think more of the youths were at the 8.15am mass todae.. and sonia and kel shld've announced n all. was kinda disappointed there wasn't a dinner attachment.. but oh well.

so this weekend.. what haf i done?.. well..

1. i've re-jigged the UN charter.. so tt mine has jus the key articles that we're supposed to memorise. so i've scaled it down from the BIIIG chunk of 22 pages.. to jus 5 pages. :D.. but havne't memorised it all yet lah. but at least.. i think it'll b easier for me to study tt wae.

2. i've written down the impt quotes and made a rough guideline of wad happed in book first of Return of The Native.

3. i've made an attempt to do that AWFUL GP compre which gave me a headache and ruined a good part of my sundae morning. [i've left out the summary and the AQ.. but realli. itz too much.. i can't animore]

4. oh.. i've tabbed my bible!!.. heh.. which i've recently started reading at night. cos everytime im like flippinf back and forth trying to find the reading.. and finally having to resort to looking at the index.

5. i've prepared vdae stuff for u gals. :)

i shld do sme econs.. labour and wages, national income, keysian.. sighs.
i shld do Brave New World.
i shld read more LKY.
i shld study mr rajoo's Singapore history package.
i shld study SEA eco and soc impact of colonialism frm last yr [for CTs]
i shld read moment of anguish.

now, do u see what i mean when i sae there isn't enuf time?.. sighs.
shall i put the no. here?.. [lest char kill me]

there are [50-23+6-11] days left to CTs.

oh god.. and w tt eqn im reminded of another thing, can't believe i suan myself. maths.. sheeesh.