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im in a happy happy mood. for reasons unknown.. but as recently brought to the fore again.. im bringing up my self-preservation theory. i tell myself not to question the happiness but rather to question the sadness. there's no harm in happiness in little things [nonsensical as it may seem, at least u're happy].. depression in little things however makes much less sense and really isn't worth it. that.. is my self-preservation theory. hah.. call it self-delusion.. psychological manipulation.. whatever.. itz okay. keeps me happy most of the time. for which i can't complain.
yikes. e week's jus flown by. the crazy new timetable we had.. and extra studying time. hahas.. n now there's YET another new timetable. okay lah.. im done latest by 2pm everyday. not including cca days lah. only that training's will probably have to b at night at cdans over the next two weeks leading up to cdans competition.. for which, have i mentioned yet.. i feel utterly unprepared. im still shooting like shit.. waiting for night training on tuesday i think. then i guess i shall have to go to coach and let him analyse and help me figure out my problem. i swear its so frustrating.. because im trying as hard as i can to control all the problems i know i have. and then it just doesn't really seem to help. maybe sarah's right.. just at that point where you've got to break through to the next level. much as im dreading the approaching coach part.. i guess it'll all be for the better.
on another note.. saturday's training was very veyr fun. :) haha.. for reasons which i can't reveal here. maybe dame's right.. if i kept a diary on that subject.. it would probably be very very very full. provided i could spare the time within the scant twenthy-four-houred day that we all have to abide by. [which i know i won't].. hahs. yeah.. saturday was lovely.. even though i did get home a little later than i was supposed to and that i guess i could have spent more time studying.. if not for those hours i was out. but heyy.. no regrets man. haha. super thnx to lingzhi, jo, sarah and mel singh. [even tho they dont visit, doesn't matter]
yeap.. itz been a very econs weekend. the econs international economy essays.. and part a of the case study which he went through already but im just re-doing as a way of revision. and then i revised international economy. and i've spent a huuuuuuggee portion of today doing econs tys on money and international economy. goodness.. was soooo painful. boy was mr leong right. haix.. oh wells.. at least the mountain while not scaled yet.. is in the process. though it still looks daunting as ever.. i hope i'll b better able to manage the mcq test. i dont know.. i guess it feels sort of good that i was able to plough through something which i knew had to be done and was totally dreading doing. itz not all done.. of course, but i decided.. i really have to switch to something else. so its history tonight. which thankfully.. lets me in here to express a little.
215 days left. its freaky, really. i still haven't had the chance to plan a proper revision plan with the syllabi. in fact. im having trouble visualising how next week is going to go. what with night training at cdans.. and possibly a movie with the gals one day aft school. and study time. yeah. and i still want to go for church bible sharing this coming week too, especially since last week's was cancelled because there were so few people going. [partly because i couldn't go because it was dads birthday] and i need to catch up with these people. and well.. every week i lay in hope that we'll start planning again.. for a trip back to baan kae noi. i desperately want to go back again at the end of this year.
oh been going to sunday mass these last two weeks. i like helping mak-ko greet and stuff. and i didn't realise that jeremy still goes to church.. haven't seen him in church in eons. and was super happy because i saw lavinia's dad in church today. for some reason.. im happy when i see him in church. because he's a nice guy.. and iz nice that he himself comes once in a while.. even though he can't get the whole family to go. i dont know.
anyway.. i've got to go now. to write an email to church people.. and to get on with history. and maybe plan abit about the silly 'test' i've got to have for gp enrichment. sheesh. though that jeremy fernando does make things less dreadful than proper lessons, though i really wish i had the same creative capability that puts dell and him on that communicable level. most times.. im the one sitting there.. trying to figure out what the hell they're talking about. hah. ciao. have a good week everyone. :) *mwahs. and thanks to mark, wan, char, dame, ling zhi, sarah, mojo.. for everything. just being there, most of all. :)
and as for action plan char.. hahs.. i've got the feeling it probably wont come through, just as other devious plans of its kind have fallen through in one way or another.. simply because i've gotten too excited over it.. cos there's been too much thought put into it already and it'd seem too good to be true. and because i probably dont know how to fumble with a tie. hahs. oh well.. we'll see tomorrow, wont we?
napfa tmr. yikes. blasted sit and reach and standing broad jump.
yikes. e week's jus flown by. the crazy new timetable we had.. and extra studying time. hahas.. n now there's YET another new timetable. okay lah.. im done latest by 2pm everyday. not including cca days lah. only that training's will probably have to b at night at cdans over the next two weeks leading up to cdans competition.. for which, have i mentioned yet.. i feel utterly unprepared. im still shooting like shit.. waiting for night training on tuesday i think. then i guess i shall have to go to coach and let him analyse and help me figure out my problem. i swear its so frustrating.. because im trying as hard as i can to control all the problems i know i have. and then it just doesn't really seem to help. maybe sarah's right.. just at that point where you've got to break through to the next level. much as im dreading the approaching coach part.. i guess it'll all be for the better.
on another note.. saturday's training was very veyr fun. :) haha.. for reasons which i can't reveal here. maybe dame's right.. if i kept a diary on that subject.. it would probably be very very very full. provided i could spare the time within the scant twenthy-four-houred day that we all have to abide by. [which i know i won't].. hahs. yeah.. saturday was lovely.. even though i did get home a little later than i was supposed to and that i guess i could have spent more time studying.. if not for those hours i was out. but heyy.. no regrets man. haha. super thnx to lingzhi, jo, sarah and mel singh. [even tho they dont visit, doesn't matter]
yeap.. itz been a very econs weekend. the econs international economy essays.. and part a of the case study which he went through already but im just re-doing as a way of revision. and then i revised international economy. and i've spent a huuuuuuggee portion of today doing econs tys on money and international economy. goodness.. was soooo painful. boy was mr leong right. haix.. oh wells.. at least the mountain while not scaled yet.. is in the process. though it still looks daunting as ever.. i hope i'll b better able to manage the mcq test. i dont know.. i guess it feels sort of good that i was able to plough through something which i knew had to be done and was totally dreading doing. itz not all done.. of course, but i decided.. i really have to switch to something else. so its history tonight. which thankfully.. lets me in here to express a little.
215 days left. its freaky, really. i still haven't had the chance to plan a proper revision plan with the syllabi. in fact. im having trouble visualising how next week is going to go. what with night training at cdans.. and possibly a movie with the gals one day aft school. and study time. yeah. and i still want to go for church bible sharing this coming week too, especially since last week's was cancelled because there were so few people going. [partly because i couldn't go because it was dads birthday] and i need to catch up with these people. and well.. every week i lay in hope that we'll start planning again.. for a trip back to baan kae noi. i desperately want to go back again at the end of this year.
oh been going to sunday mass these last two weeks. i like helping mak-ko greet and stuff. and i didn't realise that jeremy still goes to church.. haven't seen him in church in eons. and was super happy because i saw lavinia's dad in church today. for some reason.. im happy when i see him in church. because he's a nice guy.. and iz nice that he himself comes once in a while.. even though he can't get the whole family to go. i dont know.
anyway.. i've got to go now. to write an email to church people.. and to get on with history. and maybe plan abit about the silly 'test' i've got to have for gp enrichment. sheesh. though that jeremy fernando does make things less dreadful than proper lessons, though i really wish i had the same creative capability that puts dell and him on that communicable level. most times.. im the one sitting there.. trying to figure out what the hell they're talking about. hah. ciao. have a good week everyone. :) *mwahs. and thanks to mark, wan, char, dame, ling zhi, sarah, mojo.. for everything. just being there, most of all. :)
and as for action plan char.. hahs.. i've got the feeling it probably wont come through, just as other devious plans of its kind have fallen through in one way or another.. simply because i've gotten too excited over it.. cos there's been too much thought put into it already and it'd seem too good to be true. and because i probably dont know how to fumble with a tie. hahs. oh well.. we'll see tomorrow, wont we?
napfa tmr. yikes. blasted sit and reach and standing broad jump.
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