its been awhile hasn't it?

gee whiz.. itz realli been quite a loong while since i alst blogged. im sorrie i can't realli offer any proper explanation cept that there's been plenty of work and plenty of things keeping me occuppied and from whiling extended periods of time on the comp. [and here.. it seems with this entry i've broken my spell in proper english 'campaign'] hah.. too bad.. need to type in a hurry. im hungry and its break time now.

lots of things have been happening. for one.. i've stopped hating myself so much. and i haf stopped all the engineering.. for the most part. but i still hoped to be able to chat and talk and communicate randomly. but apparently.. god has other plans hmm.. i dont noe.. things seem to be going in wierd directions all over again.

i've got econs tuition now.. and it has ta b on fridays.. and the lesson STARTS at 4.30pm.. which means that i can't go for training. which means that.. i can't see you. the one time of the week that i thought i'd always have the chance to see you [at the very least].. as far as until cca stops.. has now dissipated. jus like that. and im like left here. wondering what the hell god has planned for me. cos i dont noe. sighs.

thnk god for char and mark.. my two counsellors/psychologists. i swear.. without u guys.. i wld've jus broken into a pile of broken glass on the floor.. a loooooong time ago. i dont noe lah.. things are sort of looking up.. i think. but at the same time.. in other sectors of my life.. things are kinda [at least to me, right now] lookin kinda down. and im kinda struggling to try and see it in your light. that smehow god intends it this way. and it'll all work out in the end. smehow. hah. i gtg cya arnd smetime.