time.

hi, to whoever who cares to come here.

wonder if pple have tried checking here.
sorry. my bad.

its been a long time since i last blogged here.

i apologise.. im closing this blog down i think.
well- not close it down per se, just wont b blogging here anymore.

there is a certain strain in blogging smetimes.. because basically im one of those people who needs to pour things out.
no correction, read - pour EVERYTHING out.

sme of my friends can readily tell you how awful i am in that sense.
they'll never hear the end of it once they ask me to spill to them.
[perhaps that is why ...]

and because i've come to see that there are some things which i want to be able to blog about and express and let out without having to worry about pple thinking/noeing that im talking about them and taking offence or wadeva.
so i have discovered the merits of perfect anonymity.

so absolute apologies.. i no longer blog for the world to see.
there was once a time when i blogged and blogged and blogged. like every little bit of free time i had.
and i used to love the whole blogging idea.. interacting and everything.
but now.. with the hectic-ness of uni life.. there isn't enough time for any of that anymore.

i barely even watch enough tv - time for myself is scarce as can be.
my onli constant is grey's on monday nites.. [which smetimes have to get taped cos im not free to watch it.]

if you want to know the lowdown on my life.. ask me.
if you'd want to noe.. u must surely noe me.
and if you noe me.. you'll noe how to contact me. my contacts haven't changed.

--
msg to smeone.

there was a time when i thought we would be friends forever.
there was a time when i thought you knew how much you meant to me,
dear friend.
and what i would give anything to try and be the friend you were to me.

there was a time.. when we had the time for each other.
to catch up every once in awhile.
but you
no longer have time for me. [and anyone else either, you apparently claim]

but im not going to waste anymore time or energy
judging that claim.
it isn't mine to judge.

and life is only moving forward,
as it often does.
people change.
and those we think we'll have as friends
forever,
dont always stay.

people come and people go.
it's a fact of life.
i once heard a saying or smth which said that
what counts is the footprints that they leave.

since i know not how to re-establish contact with you
in any proper way..
i'd just like to say..

thank you for being the friend you were to me.
it must have been tough on you.
thank you. for all the times.
i hope you'll have a wonderful life.

no, i noe you will.
god wll surely bless you.
--

and further, at the back of my mind..
i'll always wonder to myself..

if it was cos you felt
that i took you for granted.
or that i talked about myself
and my problems
too much.

nonetheless.. time has taken its toll on our friendship.
[that and the hectic-ness of life.]
as other [friendships] before our's
have suffered.

i wish you well.
dear friend.
smehow, sme time, sme day..
if it's meant to be
perhaps you'll be a part of my life
again.

till then.
--

cheerios everybody.
i blog now onli in perfect anonymity.
and im sorry, it's private.

see you online.
or in person smetime soon i hope.
-cher.
signing off here for the last time.
ciao.