flurry of thots crammed tgthr

hey everybody. stressed stressed stressed. im onli here cos i've set narindar's hist notes on the origns of the cold war printing and since im on the comp aniwae.. and there are.. seventeen pgs.

well.. aft writing tt last entry.. i sat down and planned out a schedule. so i've been cramming nights and days with lots of studying. training sessions for shooting haven't been toooo bad. i hit an all-time high of 7.9 average.. woohoo. and was still ok when coach came.. 7.6. but todae.. hmm.. i went wae down. so aniwae im not even going to bother. shall blot tt outta my mind now. big aim.. to try to keep as motivated as poss for the ntu shoot.

haha hiresh says to put on a garang face and intimidate the ntu peepz. rofl.. v farnie. hmm.. hope it will b ok lah. hmm.. bro paul's letting us all off at 1pm tmr. woohoo.. more time to stuyd. will prolly stay in the sch library. econs and hist and lit. hmm.. and then we've also got fridae off. gonna cme to sch and study again. and then arnd 2ish we hafta move the guns over to YISHUN SAFRA. goodness noes where tt is. hmm.. exciting exciting. altho im worried sick abt CTs.. cos me studying doens't necessarily make me more confident and im pretty freaked abt econs. lit and hist.. im pretty sure i shld b able to do reasonably fairly. but econs.. i realli dont noe. quite scared realli. sighs.. what to do..

jumbled thots.. there's onli a few days left.. and i dont noe.. i imagine itz all going to go by v v v fast. plus.. itz at the same time.. going to b exciting and tense in a wae too. competition and the extreme stress and pressure of it all. and aft surviving that.. there's common tests. hmm.. oh wells.. jus got to tahan till wednesdae. and then i'll b able to breathe again. oh oh, already asked dad.. going to go and buy a pair of sneaker/flat shoes w char on fri prolly. like nike dunks or smth or other. yupsie daisy.. tt sounds good. shld help w my shooting.. so tt i dont rock when im trying to keep steady to fire off the shot. hmm.. things are looking good good.. glad for the extra time to study. v glad.

meanwhile.. everybody.. pls keep us in ur prayers and ur fingers crossed on saturdae.. guys rifle.. then gals rifle then guys pistol and then gals pistol. mine onli starts at like 2pm. but decided tt im gonna go and meet up w them frm the morning.. get used to the atmosphere and help support and run errands and stuff. no point staying at home anwiae.. originally supposed to onli meet at 10.30am.. but aiyah.. i'll slp till like 8 and then haf bfast... study for abt an hr and then hafta go out.. no real use. might as well go out frm the beginning. yepps. more exciting. and can help out the shooters too. *winks. rofl. and the CJC yrbook is soooo pretty. :).. lol.. im feelin retarded now. i got to go. going to slp early and try and haf a very productive next 4 days. the onli 4 days left. yikes.

GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY!!.. *mwa. love ya.. praying for ya too.

absolute optimism vs absolute depression

i noe i noe.. i said hiatus.. but err.. i jus hadta write. hmm.. yest was a good dae. esp training?.. hahas.. jo tried to get me an opp.. but i cldn't. yikes. then aft tt. the pen incident.. char nearly burst out laughing. hahas.. thnx gal.. for not actually bursting out.. tho im sure i cld hear u on the verge of it. hah hmm.. and got sme BAD news. im going to b in btwn 2 NTU shooters for the competition. cos we dont get to choose our own lanes. haiz.. good news.. itz a whole dae affair.. and pistol and rifle on the same dae. and reserves will hafta b there too. :).. but a whole dae event.. good grief.. starting frm 7.30am inthe morning. and itz at YISHUN safra. yipes. dont even noe how ta get there. aniwae yeah.. tt was yest.

todae.. hmm.. i was surprised this morning by a msg frm mark sayin tt he hoped i'd haf a good dae. and that realli made my dae. and i told myself ok.. going to make special effort to haf a good dae. :) and so i did.

thursdays are long and dreary. and itz onli until 4pm u noe.. im seriously stumped as to how we managed to survive 5.10 days last year. good grief. hmm.. the leslie lung talk. 'understanding sexuality' ok.. i err.. realli dont noe wad to sae lah huh. beyond words. and funnil enough.. cld hear everybody mumbling 'sji' when he was abt to reveal to us which sch he came from. and he realli was. when he said... smewhere near here.. like e the whole audi burst out laughing lah. rofl

haha kit came to sch aft tt.. like 8-9smth.. and u shld see the mcs he gets lah damn friggin farnie. pardon moi whos never had to go and get [/ pay for] an mc b4. hmm.. i slept during lit lect.. and i did the default.. pretend to b copying smth.. as in eyes closed and me practically aslp.. but fingers jus scribbling anyhow.. to make it look like im copying lect notes. sarah was entertained. 1.5hrs of gp was erm ok lah. teamwork w brandon and soph is quite alright. :) lol hmm.. i didn't slp during econs. haha.. i listened and copied notes k.

pe was wonderful. played netball w t9. thot we were gonna die lah. i mean.. hello.. t9.. means ranjan.. selina and jasmin and wing.. netball and basketball or smth... whoa.. scary lah. and i was super scared tt smeone in my class wld offend smeone there and make enemies of our classes.. cos then i'd b caught in the middle. phew luckily tt didn't happ. hmm.. sean didn't haf tt many 'violations' surprisingly.. ben was worse. haha aniwae.. twas fun. not enough playing time man. hope we get to play again next time. netball's kinda fun. ;0) then went for hist extra lesson. aft which, i waited at the bus stop a damn long time for 156 lah.. tze wei was also on the bus and we had a nice chat.:0)

im moving downstairs to mak-ko's room to study agian.. like i did b4 the promos. hopin it will help.. smehow. i jus keep falling aslp upstairs.. no matter wad i do. and i feel so utterly unprepared. yikes. serious stuff.

yes and the main reason why i felt a compulsion to write.. is to pen down the theory i formulated while in the bath todae. i'll call it

cher's theory of absolute optimism
this, i haf identified as my main flaw.. and the main cause of me getting depressed most of the time.
so aniwae yes, this is how the theory goes.. anything and everything will go as best as it possibly can. [aka anything you'd like to happen cld and prolly will happen] and if it doesn't, make excuses for it. unlike murphy's law.. his one can't work as a self-fulfilling prophecy.. it doens't haf that benefit. *[murphy's law states that everything tt cld happen in the worst imaginable way, probably will]

and in the event that by the end of the dae.. nth remotely to wad u had hoped for.. happed.. u realise the optimism was unfounded.. and get utterly and absolutely depressed. n that my friends, is the bloody oscillation. the creme de la creme of all evil.

moral of the story.. u shldn't/can't/ [and as i hafta tell myself constantly..] WILL NOT.. try to alwaez expect the best of things. you will not go arnd expecting the worst either.. but keep that at the back of ur mind, jus in case. it'll help to make any other situation better. expectations.. [aka over-enthu hopefulness] can ruin you. trust me.. haha. jus take wad comes. as it comes.

with this.. i've got to go.. cos there's plenty to study. ciao.

GD LUCK FOR COMMON TESTS EVERYBODY!!

temporary hiatus, now official. tho i dont noe.. i may feel the need to write short entries frm time to time. :) adios amigo. and as hiresh wld sae.. 'adios amiga' for the gals.. LOL. ;0p

temp hiatus- common tests

feels like forever since i last blogged. hmm.. been rather busy lah. i realise that j2 sch weeks haf been realli rather taxing.. there's barely space to breathe nowadaez. i end up staying back late in sch jus about everydae.

mon- training till abt 6
tues- sch till 1.30 but hist enrichment [which i dont actually need to go for but u noe..] frm 3.30-4.30ish.. tt's not late late but too late to do much anything significant
wed- training till abt 6ish
thurs- sch till 4pm. also not late late.. but mass pe is the last lesson. urgh.
fri- training till 7ish.

so there we go.. where's my week?.. so much for those carefree days of j1.. popping down to orchard like EVERY single dae.. jus to eat and chit chat and window shop and try clothes for fun smetimes. i miss those days man. and i jus feel the need to go out. to watch a comedy and laugh my heart out and go back to zara and try new clothes jus for fun. and err.. haf money to spend on sme of them. i feel so.. drained. sch work and trying to cope and now.... common tests are in LESS than 2 weeks' time. feel im sinking under.

over the wkend i was sorting thru stuff tt im gonna hafta study for the CTs.. and i think i began to get a lil complacent. i dont noe.. like as in it doesn't quite seem like thaaaaat much.. but then again.. i dont noe. can't get too complacent. and itz not like i've been v productive w work these days. i tend to get sleepy v easily when im supposed to b studying. and there's still day-to-day work on top of trying to revise. i haven't been doing thaaat much revision. tho i am so far keeping on top of the day-to-day.

having the ntu competitions on the wkend before the CTs doesn't realli help either. itz not like i can cut my THREE trainings a week for jus these last 2 wks b4 CTs to concentrate and study more. cos i also need practice for the competition. n i still need lots of practice.. i've come quite a long wae.. but there are stil gonna b tonnes of pple who shoot better than me. sighs. and i haf GP AND Hist on that mondae too. po-oh. stoopid exam timetable-ers. [altho.. i am pretty happy tt i finish it all within three days..] one upside.. cos i REALLI cannot wait till im past the CTs.

oh well.. aniwae.. i've got to slp. shll try not to nod in class so much tmr. baaaaad.. t9 was laughing at me at econs lect apparently. so yeah.. this is me saein i prolly won b bloggin for awhile. takecare y'all. *mwa

flowers popped in

heys... been a long time since i last blogged.

hmm.. wasn't chinese new year a blast?.. cny mass w jo and james and lingzhi.. then cny concert was nice too. syima and res were dancing woohoo!!.. then we had potluck. hahas.. mr leong got ben and jerry's ice cream for us.. omg.. the chocolate fudge brownie flavour.. like.. whoa.. realli delicious man. :D [he's not so cheapo aft all.. dell and i both said].. hahas.. ;p then went out w mark, selina, char, dongdong, met ai ling and pee, then junyi joined too. walked arnd heeren and we took neoprints yay!.. that was nice. tho we shld've chosen the other cutting.. the one w 12pics.. [cos there were 6 of us].. yup then hadta go home lah. got a london cab w char.. hahas.. cheap thrill. wasn't so nice being home aft tt tho.. cos i was getting on mom's nerves and she was pissing me off. wad's new? hah

hmm.. i served and served and served pple on the first dae [of cny]. to give u an idea of how many pple came avisiting.. well, 7 bottles of f&n orange and 1 bottle of cherryade went to the guests all in all. yeap. aniwae.. i preferred helping at the back rather than being outside helping to entertain and being asked farnie qns.. like what i wanna do when i grow up.. what uni i wanna go.. what course.. blah blah blah. so i snacked on satay [mama's version.. itz chicken] occasionally and helped w the drinks and bringing food in and out. :) tt was fun. oh oh.. and there was a pie-ti/popiah skin shortage at two diff stages.. so i made both. :D hahass.. tt was fun-ner. lol

and u noe what?.. at one point of time.. there were like 5 lil kids in he house!! 3 lil cousins.. chek chek jason's kids.. [incl one wee little baby, fast aslp] and smebody's baby twins. whoa.. amazing lah. soooo cuute. [and i can hear char thinking abt the 'oven' im supposed to have. hahs] cousins over for dinner was fun. w thio gong showing us a card trick and playing heart attack and blackjack w e others.

second dae.. we woke up late and then went visiting. a supremely hot dae lah can. hmmm.. visited less pple cos chim po cho passed awae last yr.. and mom's boss was overseas. so yeah.. but wells. hmm.. mee siam at tua ee po's was yummy. tho erm.. i didn't realli talk to my cousin. tho she alwaez seems to try. but seriously.. she told me to 'study hard' can.. [as we were leaving].. at least i said 'have fun'.. sheesh. oh a public holidae she chooses to remind me abt studies. wow.. wad kind of student is she man?.. kkaes.. a v good one lah. shez in nj i think. wanted to go ac w frenz but decided on nj instd. [or smth like tt lah]

hmm.. and then todae we went back to sch. hmm.. sore throat and all. cumulative effect of all the prawn rolls i've 'gasak-ed' [as mama wld put it] bleahh.. having sore throat sucks. big time. :( but well.. it was a good dae back at sch. all in all. char.. u can err.. stop smiling now. lol morning mass.. for ash fridae. and bro paul put ash on my forehead. syim was like.. there's smth on ur forehead.. then i said ash. then rach was like.. eh.. ur forehead and i was going to toilet and she said to wash it off and i said no no cannot. and then eileen says i shld find out where the ask comes from haha.. tt's a good point. ;p oh and coach came to training todae. yikes. tho it wasn't sooo baad.. he didn't pick on me lah. *phew.

k lah. oh and tze qin came back to sch. hahas.. and got him to try and pump. and he cldn't lol.. farnie lah. can get thru army but cannot pump. rofl. farnie sia. and we all sat arnd the fans aft training and had ourselves farnie pockets of conversation. btw teasing joanna abt her mojo monkey fist.. rofl.. and counting scores and getting jin rong to add and divide w jus his brain. [he's damn freaky lah.. u jus read the no. to him and he can calculate.. jus like that].. j was saein jin rong's faster than his calculator lah. and i was like.. yeah man. he'll finish even b4 u finish punchin the no.s in. hahas.. jin rong's.. 'abnormal' according to mr phay. so bad lah.. mr phay even called him a mutant rofl. phay says we can do fundraising w jin rong's skill. ;0p hmmm yeah.. i had a good dae. :)

tho i wonder if smebody went w e rest to watch constantine. tho it actually shldn't matter.. cos there's no wae i wld've gone to watch it.. even if i cld get thru parenz and there wasn't CTs to worry abt and say i was ok w horrow movies [which im not]. horror movies.. so aint my thing. hahas.

got plenty of work to do this wkend. and dinner w the gals on sundae. woohoo. :) valentines eve shall b spent w e gals at marche. :D i gtg now. ciao.

oh yeah.. i nearly forgot. i maintain that smetimes.. god surprises you.. jus sit tight and hang on, cos the ride is in god's control and flowers may pop in thru the window occasionally. :) [especially when u least expect it] *like they did todae. :D -cher's theory of flowers popping lol.

nowhere near

nowhere near you, for one. [not that it'd make a difference, i guess]
nowhere near ready for the NTU shoot. [not getting better fast enuf, n can't rush it]
nowhere near ready for CTs. [too much to do, too little time]

but life doesn't wait for u to be ready, now does it?..

and i've realised that sme things.. tho u try to put behind you.. will still come back to you in lapses and u realli can't help it. in little things.. tt u wldn't haf thot u'd rmbr, but of course, u do. suffice to sae.. it stings a lil.. but oh wells.. tt's life i guess. and in a wae.. i guess wad the brother [when i was at holy hour of vocations on fridae] said, cmes to mind. smth to the effect that god puts you thru all the expereiences for a reason. and i guess i've alwaez known and trusted that god wldn't put me thru smth he noes he and i wldn't b able to do together.

ALIVE exhibition.. well.. my absolute pride and joy is the intro board. :0) love it. shall try and get a picture of it and put it up here. dame came over for awhile to study [rather than go all the wae home aft little rock] and then we went to prepare for the exhibition. hmm.. all good lah. we were a little rushed and a little stressed.. but all in all.. i think we did good. no, we did great. hmm.. onli i was quite pissed that we weren't realli given a proper exhibition venue. stupid corner near the carpark.. virtually out of sight unless u were specifically looking for us [and looked hard]. sighs.. wad to do lah.. you work as best u can w wad u get i guess. and they DIDN'T read out the announcement aft 6pm mass yest. haix. wasted. at which pt... i jus.. oh well.. i think more of the youths were at the 8.15am mass todae.. and sonia and kel shld've announced n all. was kinda disappointed there wasn't a dinner attachment.. but oh well.

so this weekend.. what haf i done?.. well..

1. i've re-jigged the UN charter.. so tt mine has jus the key articles that we're supposed to memorise. so i've scaled it down from the BIIIG chunk of 22 pages.. to jus 5 pages. :D.. but havne't memorised it all yet lah. but at least.. i think it'll b easier for me to study tt wae.

2. i've written down the impt quotes and made a rough guideline of wad happed in book first of Return of The Native.

3. i've made an attempt to do that AWFUL GP compre which gave me a headache and ruined a good part of my sundae morning. [i've left out the summary and the AQ.. but realli. itz too much.. i can't animore]

4. oh.. i've tabbed my bible!!.. heh.. which i've recently started reading at night. cos everytime im like flippinf back and forth trying to find the reading.. and finally having to resort to looking at the index.

5. i've prepared vdae stuff for u gals. :)

i shld do sme econs.. labour and wages, national income, keysian.. sighs.
i shld do Brave New World.
i shld read more LKY.
i shld study mr rajoo's Singapore history package.
i shld study SEA eco and soc impact of colonialism frm last yr [for CTs]
i shld read moment of anguish.

now, do u see what i mean when i sae there isn't enuf time?.. sighs.
shall i put the no. here?.. [lest char kill me]

there are [50-23+6-11] days left to CTs.

oh god.. and w tt eqn im reminded of another thing, can't believe i suan myself. maths.. sheeesh.

maybe..

been stuck on a particular song lately. 'is it cos im cool' by mousse t feat emma lanford. and i err.. came up w my own stupid modification.

maybe im a fool
cos i still like you
and you noe it too [least i think u do]

what's a gal to do
cos when she sees you
she can't keep her cool [shez all over the place]

maybe im a fool
when i dont see you
i just lose my cool [im an aimless soul]

maybe im a fool.. maybe im a foo-oool

what am'i s'posed to do?
do u noe u kill me
w ur every move

yeah.. i think im a foool.

wish there cld be "sme decent conversation" but i dont even noe why i bother animore. sighs. so much for cross country and getting a trophy in front of like.. the whole sch, only to not get noticed by you. and going to the board there... [when u were there] and looking at the timings and hoping ur eye might land on my name and think to speak to me by wae of congratualtion at least.

hhaa wake up lah cher.

give me a C-R-U-M-M-Y

basket. all the stuff i typed jus went awae. the damn wireless connection. see, crummy dae continues. sheesh. LET GO OF ME ALREADY!!!

being at home yest wasn't all that much.. and i was sure i wanted to go back to sch. but todae was kinda crummy.. in a word. sch was.. tiresome. haix. and i swear.. smetimes i think u noe im looking and u look like u're jus standing there posing on purpose. make me wanna kill you. basket.

still can't believe wad i said to mr t on wed. haha. he still rmbrs and the class still rmbrs lol. and ju and kit lah.. this morning suan me.. asking me if i wanted a hp. lol.. cos i rmbr i was shouting at sme pple to get handfones so tt i cld call pple. i err.. apprently called the whole wide world.. in mr t's words. hah.

then training.. on one hand.. it was pretty good.. im getting better, grouping's getting tighter.. slowly. still got a lot to work on tho. and on the other hand.. haix.. im tired of bothering. i feel like giving up. and linette took the whole cotton pellet box. and wei jie, james and daniel did the pumping. i jus sat there and sulked.. partly frm not improving more w the shots and partly determining not to turn and look at u. and the noticeboard shit.. hah.. seriously cher, i dont noe why u even bothered. see mark, told u to tell me to jus go to the damn bus stop. [naah, nt u fault lah] sighs.

on a higher note tho.. three academic surpises:

1. i actually passed the shit gp essay i wrot ein class tt dae on science and tech. HAH.

2. my hist SBQ skills on grouping sources are HORRIBLE!! [smth to work on there]

3. got a lovely mark for e lit essay i did last wkend, my pride and joy 37/50.

there. now why cna't mr t be more generous, like mr glascow. the furthest i've ever got for mr t's assignments is like 28/50. stingy bugger.

church meeting with the grp. haix.. a complete mess.. thnx to me. so we didn't get much done at all. but we did roughly discuss and stuff lah. sighs.. i was in my burst-out laughing mode tho. [tt's when u can tell im trying hard to b happy].. but itz ok lah.. i am genuinely happy when w my church grp friends. hmm then we went for holy hr of vocations and it was pretty interesting. and now dame has ideas abt wanting to go for the all-night vigil on the 16th of april. oh boy. lol

i guess tt pretty much brings us to the end of my crummy dae. im glad tho.. tt i made it thru all the [for lack of a better word] crummi-ness.. all the cumulative things tt added up bit by bit. sighs.. and i wldn't haf been able to take it if i didn't haf mark to call up and complain to. tho i must've gotten lotsa radiation frm the looong fone calls by now.. and despite all the suaning.. IS THERE NO ESCAPE?!! [in a semi-agonised voice. lol] im still alive. haha.. sighs.. yup.. there's the 'sigh' again.

been a long time

hmmm.. itz been a long time since i stayed at home [instd of going to sch] cos of feeling sick. where shld i begin?

i meant to write the night before yest. but i was tired. if i had written. it wld prolly haf been abt how excited and nervous i was abt the corss country. indeed.

yest.. was the cross country. well.. stayed in sch aft sch. changed and then we went to far east to eat sme. i jus had a few pieces of popcorn chicken. i was pretty sure i'd eaten enuf.. w the rice i'd had for break. [at least.. tt's wad i thot]. so yeah then we got the bus to go to macritchie. and on the wae.. whoa.. shld've seen the bus stop was like FULL of CJ pple.. and the bus packed up w cj pple. and we were all like.. haha.. and then when we reached the next bus stop.. there were smemore CJ pple.. haha.. and we were like.. whoa.. lol. sighs. still wish the bus wasn't all packed up when we reached tt second bus stop tho. quite farnie lah.. dell. syim, ras and rach were like cher... and i was like.. yeah i noe!!!!.. argh. oh wells.

got to macRitchie and all that. race started. turned out the route i've been practising w dad.. kinda missed one bit. i forgot the starting line. bugger. so tt took like 2mins. sighs.. it was awful. i was lke numbing up.. and i got overly-distressed. i knew j1s and j2s were running together.. but as a personal thing.. i dont like seeing too many pple ahead of me. itz awful for morale.. and it jus made me distressed. all in all.. i think i pushed myself too hard. got too distressed.. and yeah. so many times when i wanted to walk.. but told myself i mustn't. then when i hit the expressway bit.. i thot i wans't gonna b able to make it. seriously.. i felt like giving up.. but then i wanted to kill myself.. cos i didn't practise w dad four times and all to give up upon almost reaching there. so pushed on. and then when i was rounding the bend approaching the finishing line.. i cldn't even sprint properly. felt almost sure i wasn't going to get a no. already. but i did. and it surprised me. i got no. 18. apparently.. they extended the prize giving to the top 20. but i was seriously tired lah. i laid down on the road awhile. felt realli whoosy. and nobody came for awhile.. i guess it took them awhile to notice me.. since they were busy keeping time for others coming in. aniwae.. aft tt got helped to the shade and laid there w sme water smeone offered.

and tt's when it began. i err.. wanted to go to the finishing line to cheer and see pple pass. but err.. i sorta began to hyperventilate. and well.. i worried a lot of pple i realli shldn't haf. im realli sorrie now.. for all the pple who were realli concerned. for the pple i leaned on and who helped me. and mr t and mr glascow. and those who helped carried me to the grass. im heavy!!.. hope u didn't break ur backs doing it. and for the poor paramedics guy i hit so hard. and for all the pple's hps i borrowed and shouted no.s to call at.

i wonder if mr t's gonna kill me for wad i said. haha. was lying down on the grass.. and he was like.. who am i?.. and i went.. mr tamilselvan.. the guy who can't teach lit properly cos he just makes jokes. and insults everyone. i hope he wasn't too offended. haha.. and i still rmbr wad i said after that. wad's ur no.? no. 9 arh bad no. and i was like.. no... itz a great no. cos 2t09 is the best class.. next to 2t02. cos they tie. haha.. i meant it u noe. :]

dad came. and i got my prize [looking like shit.. since i had been lying in the grass] hah. oh wells. no class medal.. but itz alrite. i made it again. another trophy.. which is wad i had realli wanted. then i began a lot of msging.. to thnk pple for all the concern and apologise for making them worry so much. came back home w a very very bad headache. so i had sme pringles chips. salt has always been my aide for headaches. and i think i rmbr mr t saying tt i'd lost a lot of salt. so i kinda figured it'd b alright. then i went to bathe. and i started feeling awful. threw up. and errm yeah..

cldn't eat dinner.. cos i kept feeling like throwing up. turns out the pringles and cherryade was a pretty bad idea after all. took medicine and tried to slp. but the headache lah. dad came home and gave me a rub-down.. was aching all over. he says it happens when u hyperventilate. so i cldn't eat dinner and i kept trying to throw up.. cos my stomach felt bad. smehow.. i eventually got to slp. woke up at 9am this morning.

stomach still feels.. but more or less alright lah. i got up.. brushed my teeth. washed my face and then ate chicken noodle soup. im damn hungry now lah. food's still down.. im determined not to throw up again. aniwae.. i dont think i'll need to. watched sme tv.. and erm i dont noe. i'll see how it goes. guess i'll try to do sme work. esp glascow's lit poem thing. urgh.

im fine now. realli.

i kinda wonder if 'anyone' noticed me getting tt trphy. haha. i'll find out tmr aniwae. :) yes.. im pretty sure i'll b in sch tmr. [i hate missing sch]..